'but you don't look sick'

this is something i have heard A LOT recently, i am aware that i don't look sick, that i look just like any other 23 year old but that's the thing with INVISIBLE illnesses, the clue is in the name, you can't see it from the outside, but let me tell you i definitely feel it on the inside.

i'm also fed up of people telling me it's all in my head, you wouldn't be saying that if you woke up feeling dizzy, or if you couldn't feel your leg, i get that most people don't get it, and that's fine, but please don't belittle me and tell me i'm imagining it, because believe me i wish i was.

i found this description on facebook  and thought it was pretty accurate, i don't suffer from all of these symptoms and they aren't there 100% of the time, but the joys of Multiple Sclerosis is that you don't know when a symptom is going to hit and how long it's going to last.

now that i have had my rant i will go to something more positive...

I AM ALMOST 7 MONTHS RELAPSE FREE!!

this is a massive deal for me, since getting my diagnosis almost 2 years ago the longest i have been relapse free is 7 months, i am so close to beating that so i am feeling positive. :D

since i last posted i have also been discharged from my neuro physiotherapist this was daunting for me at first, but i have now realised that it is a good thing, i have been given a number to ring if i ever need to get in touch again but he said that he'd done all he could for me and that he could see improvements and i just needed to keep at it :)

sorry....

firstly let me apologize, i know i said i would be better at blogging this year and 7 weeks in i am still yet to post, but hey i guess things are better late than never right?

the first few weeks of 2014 have been very strange for me, i have found myself at opposite ends of the spectrum emotionally, i am seriously like a yoyo at the minute & there hasn't even been any explanation for it which is making is making it harder for me to handle.

I am now an honorary Auntie, my best friend gave birth to a beautiful baby boy on the 06.01.14, his name is Joey Christopher Brown and he weighed 6lb 14oz, at just over a month old he already had his Auntie Treece wrapped round his little finger, but I'm okay with that ;)

one of  my highest moments so far this year was my birthday present from my dad, he bought me tickets to go and see James Arthur, now for anyone who knows me personally or follows me on instagram will know that i am OBSESSED with this man, like seriously, i just love him. I will do a separate blog post on that, I have videos :)

the 31st January marked 2 years since my MS symptoms started, and thinking about it this may have been one of the reasons I have been so miserable and down, as much as I try to forget, certain dates stick in my head, and it is ALWAYS for a negative reason, i never remember the important dates like birthdays! but never mind, i think my brain was reliving all the traumatic experiences from 2 years ago so i have been down right, spending my life in my bedroom, not talking to anyone and randomly crying. 

BUT...

the 4th Feb marked a whole year since i started treatment for my MS, and that has put me in a more positive mood, at 3 injections a week for 52 weeks, that marked 156 INJECTIONS  and for someone who has always been terrified of needles and injections I think that this a massive achievement, that day was made even better when i got a text off one of my best friends saying 'so proud of you for getting through your first year of MS treatment Patrice, well done!'  it really is the little things that make your day.. 

we bought new batteries for my mobility scooter today too, so hopefully I will be able to use it without having to rely on my dad to rescue me cos i've run out of power lol, but i will keep you posted on that!